The Girl I Used To Know
Well, this has been a long time coming but i am so inspired and blessed to share it with you.
Who ever knew in a country where they worship a "cow" someone would find Jesus. i grew up in a beautiful country and by the age of 10 somehow or some where someone would have told you about Jesus ,hell and Heaven. i was 10 when i made the decision of having Jesus as my personal savoir because at that time i really feared hell. the thought of being through fire for eternity i couldn't stand that pain(for a person who cant stand pain)
so i made that decision so to on the comfortable side when judgment time came. i really didn't think i was a sinner come on i was only 10 years old. i was morally good and didn't commit those "sins" though sometimes i would cheat my parents which was okay to me because they were my parents. "..if you don't steal from your parents who will you ever steal from.." that was my saying.
After awhile some years later i got another message about Jesus,Hell and Heaven and this time i felt a "Baby sinner" since i used to cheat my parents so i stopped and i was ready to have Jesus as my personal savoir ....
Life moved on kept the ten commandments in check,went to church, i guess i was a "christian" then. i used to call my self "saved protestant".
I grew up going to a protestant church so automatically that made me a protestant by birth...hahaha
Being a saved protestant gave me some privilege to talk to God directly so i used to have lots of talks with him. but i was extremely a quiet person at home because i had anger issues somehow every thing at home just used to piss me off so to avoid anything, i would close up which has affected me til date but i am working on it. they were other issues that made me close up but i remember when i reached some point because of anger i would explode and you wouldn't love to be the opposite person because i would just beat you up. i felt like no one just understood me, they were all against me,they didn't want me,was i even of any value? i promised my self i will never forgive them..... so that time God became my imaginary, invisible friend i would tell everything.........
................................. be to continued next Saturday.
